你的明天有多快乐不是我的, 我们的爱是唱一半的歌 ♥
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Monday, 7 September 2009 -{'05:52
i just can't stop those tears.
i feel left out. i feel hurt. i feel stress. i feel disappointed. i feel out of place. i feel like i'm gonna die. i feel like, thr's no tmr. i feel sad. i feel like crying.
Life's a dissapointment, i feel like, everyone's a stranger. i don't know any of you anymore. everyone changed. th ppl i knew, aren't th same anymore. Yeah, changed fr th better. but, i want my old friends bck. & more imptly i want you bck.
what's wrong .. ? why are you giving me th cold shoulders? do you even know it hurts? we used to chat fr long long hrs. but now, i hardly have a chance to chat with you. you always replied me with long msgs, tht nvr fail to cheer me up. & now? one word replies, 2 word replies. @ th most, its only a sentence. what's happening, why are we drifting apart? if you were gonna do this to me, why give me hopes in th first place? it hurts ok. it makes me feel like crying. i'm not strong, i get hurt easily fyi. yeah, you don't know, he don't know, she don't know, everyone doesn't know. but so? i'm a human. i have feelings. i'll feel like crying, i'll feel like breaking down. i'll feel like everything's falling apart.
i've been hurt before, deeply. all these relationship stuffs just, tears me apart. ppl say, falling makes you stronger, but no. it only makes me more afraid, i thought i've met someone better, but no. aft all, history's repeating itself again. i've warned myself again & again, to nvr fall too deep, to nvr trust a guy to not hurt me. but fr once, i trusted you, i thought you'd care, i thought you'd make me feel secure, i thought fr once, i won't get hurt, i thought you'd protect me. i thought,i thought, i thought. i thought wrong. you're just like th rest of them. out to hurt me. why .. ? i failed. i'm falling deeper. "time heals all wound"? i don't think so. tht wound he made more then a year ago, is still thr. & i bet this one's gonna stay too. you can give me th cold shoulders, but tht won't make me frget you. you're just making me fall deeper, like i did fr him. pls, stop doing this to me. i can't, take. th pain.
